As you might know, last Friday I dove back into writing my book.
I had been feeling stuck and unsure of how to best move forward. I had competing books in my head and didn’t know which one would win and get to be written first or if possibly they were the same book. I felt a pressure inside of me to get the process moving.
I’ve been dealing with the competing energy of desire and resistance.
Can you relate to this feeling?
My desire to write this book and share it with the world comes from deep within my soul. It came to me over twenty years when I was first awakening and intuitively shown that one day I would be writing a book to share my healing journey and tools so that more people would have access to the healing I had.
The past few years I felt the call once again, and this book has beckoning me from deep within, whispering in my ear to write, write, write.
Resistance (aka fear), mysteriously kept showing up in the form of “I’m too busy, this is not the right timing, I will get to it soon, I just have to plan it right” (procrastination backed by logical reasoning),and the thought that “maybe my book has already been written or maybe my writing won’t be good enough?” have been lurking in the background.
Resistance also shows up in the form of physical "stuckness". You sometimes feel like you literally can’t move forward. To sit down and write feels painful. It is as if you are at tug-o-war with yourself.
So I took the time to get really intimate with my resistance, to lean in, listen, understand it and embrace the fear.
This past weekend, my desire won!
The floodgates opened and I showed up fully.
Being the visual, creative person I am who loves beauty, I had to start with colored pens and big sheet of white paper. I first drew the name of book (…it is SO GOOD!) and drew a little symbol to represent it (TOP SECRET).
As soon as I started drawing with colors and saw the name of my book on the page, all the pieces started coming together… who knew I just had to activate my belly chakra and get my creative juices flowing to kick start the process?
Everything is lining up, making sense and the Universe is bringing me the people I need to bring this book to the masses.
About a month ago, I met a copywriter (the fabulous Lindsay Sacks) during a coaching call in a group where I do Mindset and Spirituality Coaching for entrepreneurs.
Immediately after our call with this copywriter I intuitively knew I had to book a session with her. She offered a special rate to have a deep dive session with her and go over branding and copy.
I jumped on her offer and she got me in her schedule a week later.
A part of me knew this was not only going to be beneficial for my website copy, but also somehow help me with my book. After the session I was inspired, but still not aware of how it all fit together.
Thursday of last week, I had a session with my good friend and shamanic healer, Kathy Murphy (check her out).
She helped me to recognize that the pressure I had been putting on myself was blocking my sacral chakra (which needs to be open and flowing if you want to express yourself creatively).
She worked her magic with a sound bath, shamanic energy work, reiki and channeling (my guides love to talk to her!). I felt inspired and deeply relaxed when I left the session.
Friday morning it all started to come together…
When I first sat down to write, I looked at all the work I had been doing and it felt stale. I decided to “start over” and pulled out a big sheet of blank white paper.
That’s when I got out my colored pens and started to draw… it opened my creative center and allowed the energy to start to flow.
I looked down on the page and realized that the copy writing prep work I had done was content for three of the main chapters in my book. The beginning and end chapters came to me effortlessly. The content started pouring out of me.
Before I began this process I meditated and felt into the essence of the book, I prayed and asked God to guide me in this process. I cleansed my space and created a ritual I am now doing every morning before I sit down to write.
The chapters, outline and main points are coming together powerfully and I am getting more and more excited and inspired… I am finally “in flow”!
Will resistance show up again? Probably.
Do I have the tools to push past it? Yes.
Can I? Yes.
Will I? YES!
So how about you?
Do you have competing energies at tug-o-war within yourself? How would it feel if you pushed past the resistance and finally broke through?
If you missed my email or blog post with my tips on how to breakthrough, you can check it out here: http://www.heatherfantin.com/inspiration/4-steps-to-breakthrough-resistance
P.S. As the picture says, consider this YOUR INVITATION <3
Sending you all my love,